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2023 by Dee
2023. This year I’m fully embracing & accepting the craziness of my inner child, she runs wild & free. No tethers, no shackles, no shame or guilt.
I have learned to better understand the patterns of my anxiety, depression, fear of abandonment or the insecurity that comes with a cancer diagnosis, I’m struggling with chronic illness, & know what to do when I am stuck on the painful chaotic rollercoaster.
I have found my triggers and grounded myself by telling that 6 year old littlest me (one hand in your heart, one on your belly& breathe)
“you are safe, you are loved, you are enough, nothing & nobody will get you today or ever”
This year I’m able to lean into the nuance & duality of things with grace, love & empathy.
I know the pain comes & goes but calmness soon follows.
I sit with it, let it chit chat a while, comfort it, acknowledge it & let it go judgment free.
I turn towards my pain with compassion, gentleness, love, empathy & find a path towards healing.
This year & going forth I am my own best friend, I am the parent I never had. I am that love that I give unconditionally to everyone around me. I ask for what I deserve. I have firm boundaries & little windows in my heart. I have control over how much access I give folks, it’s no longer 24×7 free access, it has to be earned.
I value myself & my time. I prioritize myself & I’m vocal about my needs. I’m a better communicator & I understand you are not a mind reader.
I relish my solitude, & find solace within me.
I am connected with like-minded peeps & created a safe haven for myself. I have gotten out of my fear cycle & asking for help is not so difficult anymore. I have the right people around me… my tribe is my pride.
I know I’m loved & I’m not alone.
I AM ENOUGH!
Maybe a bit too much….. & totally fine with it!
